Deepkiss 720/DJ Ordeal/The Sparticus Stargazer/
The Tarbox Tentacle/The Vitamin B12
Compiled by DJ Ordeal
Cassette (E87)

Describing this music is impossible because before you can describe
this music you need to listen to this music, and before you can listen
to this music you have to want to listen to this music, and before you
can want to listen to this music you have to know that music is some-
thing that you can desire, and before you can know that music is
something that you can desire you have to understand what desire is,
and before you can understand what desire is you have to understand
what lack is, and before you can understand what lack is you have
to lose something that is very dear to you, and before you can lose
something that is very dear to you it is necessary that you love some-
thing that can be lost, and before you can love something that can
be lost you have to be brave enough to love despite the danger, and
before you can be brave enough to love despite the danger you have
to believe that nothing that you love is ever truly lost, and before you
can believe that nothing that you love is ever lost you need to have
the conversation with your grandmother in which she sings that song,
and before you can have the conversation with your grandmother in
which she sings that song you need to be interested in your grand-
mother, and before you can be interested in your grandmother you
have to realise that someday she will die, and before you can realise
that someday she will die you need to learn that everything is mortal
and nothing lasts, and before you can learn that everything is mortal
and nothing lasts you have to have lived the best day of your life, and
before you can live the best day of your life you have to have stayed
up until dawn and watched the sunrise from the last car of the night
train from Bangkok to Chiang Mai as it slowly climbs into the mountains,
and before you can stay up until dawn and watch the sunrise from the
last car of the night train from Bangkok to Chiang Mai you have to have
travelled to Thailand, and before you can travel to Thailand you have
to develop a romantic view of travel to other lands, and before you can
develop a romantic view of travel to other lands you have to believe
that somewhere else is better than here, and before you can believe
that somewhere else is better than here you have to be unhappy where
you are, and before you can be unhappy where you are you need to be
reminded of her face and her touch by everything that surrounds you,
and before you can be reminded of her face and her touch by everything
that surrounds you it is necessary to feel her absence constantly, like a
phantom limb, and before you can feel her absence constantly, like a
phantom limb, you have to know what absence is, and before you can
know what absence is you have to know what presence is, and before
you can know what presence is you have to know what it’s like to stroke
her sleeping body, and before you can know what it’s like to stroke her
sleeping body you have to know what it’s like to sleep alone and wish
that she were alongside you, and before you can know what it’s like to
sleep alone and wish that she were alongside you have to know what
she looks like, and before you can know what she looks like you need
to see her for the first time laughing in the summer afternoon sunlight
on her bicycle outside the record store, and before you can see her for
the first time laughing in the summer afternoon sunlight on her bicycle
outside the record store she first has to go to the record store, and
before she can go to the record store she needs to want to find that
certain record that can change her life, and before she can want to find
that certain record that can change her life she needs to believe that
her life can be changed by music, and before she can believe that her
life can be changed by music she needs to listen to her boyfriend
describe with incandescent eyes this music that he heard that he can’t
find the words to describe, and the sad fact, the tragic fact, the in-
escapable fact is that she can never ever listen to her boyfriend
describe to her with incandescent eyes this music that he heard that
he can’t find the words to describe, never, never, never, because this
is the music that he heard, and to describe this music is, as we know,
impossible. — Joseph Clayton Mills

First edition of 80 copies
£5