Deepkiss 720
DJ Ordeal
The Sparticus Stargazer
The Tarbox Tentacle
The Vitamin B12

Compiled by DJ Ordeal
Cassette (E87)




Describing this music is impossible because before you can describe
this music you need to listen to this music, and before you can listen
to this music you have to want to listen to this music, and before
you can want to listen to this music you have to know that music is
something that you can desire, and before you can know that music is
something that you can desire you have to understand what desire is,
and before you can understand what desire is you have to understand
what lack is, and before you can understand what lack is you have
to lose something that is very dear to you, and before you can lose
something that is very dear to you it is necessary that you love
something that can be lost, and before you can love something that
can be lost you have to be brave enough to love despite the danger,
and before you can be brave enough to love despite the danger you
have to believe that nothing that you love is ever truly lost, and before
you can believe that nothing that you love is ever lost you need to
have the conversation with your grandmother in which she sings that
song, and before you can have the conversation with your grandmother
in which she sings that song you need to be interested in your grand-
mother, and before you can be interested in your grandmother you
have to realise that someday she will die, and before you can realise
that someday she will die you need to learn that everything is mortal
and nothing lasts, and before you can learn that everything is mortal
and nothing lasts you have to have lived the best day of your life,
and before you can live the best day of your life you have to have
stayed up until dawn and watched the sunrise from the last car of the
night train from Bangkok to Chiang Mai as it slowly climbs into the
mountains, and before you can stay up until dawn and watch the
sunrise from the last car of the night train from Bangkok to Chiang
Mai you have to have travelled to Thailand, and before you can travel
to Thailand you have to develop a romantic view of travel to other
lands, and before you can develop a romantic view of travel to other
lands you have to believe that somewhere else is better than here,
and before you can believe that somewhere else is better than here
you have to be unhappy where you are, and before you can be
unhappy where you are you need to be reminded of her face and
her touch by everything that surrounds you, and before you can be
reminded of her face and her touch by everything that surrounds you
it is necessary to feel her absence constantly, like a phantom limb,
and before you can feel her absence constantly, like a phantom limb,
you have to know what absence is, and before you can know what
absence is you have to know what presence is, and before you can
know what presence is you have to know what it’s like to stroke her
sleeping body, and before you can know what it’s like to stroke her
sleeping body you have to know what it’s like to sleep alone and wish
that she were alongside you, and before you can know what it’s like
to sleep alone and wish that she were alongside you have to know
what she looks like, and before you can know what she looks like you
need to see her for the first time laughing in the summer afternoon
sunlight on her bicycle outside the record store, and before you can
see her for the first time laughing in the summer afternoon sunlight
on her bicycle outside the record store she first has to go to the
record store, and before she can go to the record store she needs
to want to find that certain record that can change her life, and before
she can want to find that certain record that can change her life she
needs to believe that her life can be changed by music, and before
she can believe that her life can be changed by music she needs to
listen to her boyfriend describe with incandescent eyes this music
that he heard that he can’t find the words to describe, and the sad
fact, the tragic fact, the inescapable fact is that she can never ever
listen to her boyfriend describe to her with incandescent eyes this
music that he heard that he can’t find the words to describe, never,
never, never, because this is the music that he heard, and to describe
this music is, as we know, impossible. — Joseph Clayton Mills

See also
DJ Ordeal (E39)

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